Consciousness of God – Observations of Heaven and the Creator Over the Years
I have always had a separate, yet abstract, sense of God’s presence as an over-arching part of the experience of unbounded awareness. Gradually over time as I gained familiarity with universal consciousness, I discovered that even my senses, particularly sight, was also gaining the spontaneous ability to remain awake. Functioning very close to what had been transcendental to them in the past, they began to glow and shimmer with an inner divine radiance. It seemed that almost overnight I was suddenly transported into a wonderful heavenly environment that was delicately superimposed on my daily experience. I was in the midst of a celestial society; a glorious, in-dwelling, heart-felt home. The experience of being in an all-encompassing physical paradise directly related to and encompassing my daily life was so clear that it was at times over-poweringly exquisite, creating a palpable divine family encompassing joy. I saw the celestial personifications functioning as a host of orchestrating, universal laws of nature that supported me and everyone else. Not disruptive in any way but certainly unavoidably alluring.
This is a state of awareness where the senses function on the finest aspect of inner-to-outer life, not yet Absolute, but certainly very close. I could not feel, think or move without constantly stirring a wonderful onslaught of divine sights and sounds that cascaded exuberantly around me in every direction; all of me, suspended as it were, on the very surface and depth of Absolute awareness. I could see clearly my regular life connected and dependent on divine activity, one-, two-directional, interdependent weave of connectedness.
During this time I experienced that in activity my senses were very acute, as if a mist had been lifted from them and everything was super clean and bright, everything was delightful, on the verge of shimmering. I felt that God’s presence was there in my consciousness, even though at first I could not clearly see Him; I was in a state of devotion and love so pronounced that the joy of devotion alone kept God at a slight distance and that’s where I wanted Him to be. He was that something so great that I could still feel devoted to and aspire to meet face to face. My heart, mind and body were truly swimming in the tangible substance of Heaven’s glorious reality. I was captured and submerged in pure unthinking, unmistakable personal-to-universal love. I wanted and needed to see God as a universal being separate from myself, yet sitting in my heart as the grandest feeling.
A silent ocean of wonderfully expressed knowledge that, in these days, is the universal content of my experience was then, years ago, definitely in the background. My experience was all about bliss and the divinely functioning senses. I would have been happy to stay in that state forever. However as this state stabilized and became permanent my experience started to change and to rapidly expand. Those beautiful states of experience that I was traveling through became permanent aspects of a layered wholeness in that they never went away but they certainly progressed to more and more pure knowledge and clarity.
With time, as a profound sense of all-inclusive wholeness naturally began to unfold, even in my daily life, unbounded awareness and divine perception joined in the on-going parade of experience. Nothing was left behind, the whole process was completely additive, nothing was lost even though my core relationship to all these aspects of consciousness was dramatically changing.
There came a time, when at first, abstractly, as pure knowingness, and then gradually also with my senses, I could hear and see not just the divine heavens and occupying manifestations but also the very mechanics of their unfoldment as the continuity and oneness of all the layers of my personal, celestial, and universal consciousness. And now each layer’s very existence is not some separate, far-away aspect of existence, but is wonderfully revealed as a complete togetherness of pure experience, pure understanding and pure happiness: God’s eternal playground here and now.
Hello Harri,
This is by far your best blog post, in my opinion. You speak of your experience of God, of your devotion to God’s Divine Consciousness. How poignant!
It’s interesting how you talk about your senses becoming more acute, especially your sight. In Kashmir Shaivism they say the perceptual organs are the devas and the chakras are the angels. Could you relate to that or is your experience similar in relation to the Celestial objects you perceive, meaning as part of your perception organs?
I learned to speak very late in life – around 6 and prior to that perceived the world much through my feelings. I became an empath and my emotional perception was so acute that when I fell in love for the first time it peaked and it allowed me to taste similarly of God’s consciousness where I would feel such sweet devotion and joy to simply worship existence itself. Perhaps with time and practice my other perceptual organs would develop such acuity.
I also very much appreciate you saying: “unmistakable personal-to-universal love.” How wonderfully integrated your experiences are. The personal, celestial and universal divinely co-existing in a complete togetherness – utter wholeness.
Thank you for the exquisite description,
Janet
A new time beginning? With such beautiful experiences being had? Looking forward to the dawn of a wonderful time for mankind.
thank you, Harri. your exquisite descriptions just lift me up.
such great stuffs,you should become a teacher
Dear Harri, Maharishi said in one of his tapes that God is that which presides over the absolute and relative. Your experience seems like a commentary of that statement. In India any talk of Gods and the celestial is seen as primitive and is dismissed but it seems these entities will be recognised only by a spiritually advanced society. I think this current wave of abstract non-dual teaching will eventually give way to greater recognition of the world of Devatas. In all the Vedic Literature the principle dieties (Brahma, Vishnu, Mahesh, Devi & Ganesh) as described both as Abstract Brahmn and Almightly creators, preservers and destroyers. They also have the authority to grant liberation and highest knowledge to their devotees. Does your experience verify this aspect?
Dear Anand
Human consciouness spans and ultimately is greater than both relative and absolute experience. The experience of enlightenment is discovered to be our own basic nature. The universal leval of pure knowledge, the entire celestial heavens with thier personifications of the laws of nature and our personal to universal so-called relative existance is the entire range of an awakened consciousness. It is One grand see-through, known-through connectedness of all layers of unbounded wholeness. Any opening of the heart or mind with the assistance of teachers or divine insights is great but awakening always arises from within our own consciousness and thus is always our own responsibility to seek and gain.
I will cover these great questions in more detail in future blogs.
All the very best to you
Harri
Hi Anand
My experience is that the whole growth to awakening is a very natural process. And that we are personally responsible for putting our attention on promoting a life expanding situation for our selves. Any help we can get along the way from teachers or subtle aspects of nature will be beniftial according to how open we are to these positive influences.
All the very best
Harri
have you ever seen anything negative in this state? I ask this because as a small boy of about 4 or 5, I had a negative experience.
My brother and I shared a room, and we were in our beds, with the bedroom light off. We could see each other well, because the light from the hall way washed into our room. we were sitting up on our pillows in each of our single beds facing each other and talking. all at once, all I can describe it as, was a “monster hand” plopped on my bed. It was gray, with pot marked skin, and long claws. very frightening. of course, we both screamed our lungs out, and my dad, ran into our room and flicked on the light. the monster hand that was on my bed just vanished.
To this day, both my brother and I agree on what we saw.
This was negative. so I feel that there was something drawing this to us. what do you think. thanks bk
Hi Bob
Because ultimately all experience are known and experienced as consciousness, these kinds of experiences are very real. Fortunetly they come and go. Negative experiences are really just short delays getting out of the way so that we can contiue to progress.
All the very best
Harri