Luminous Self-Awareness is Normal
I experience a boundless stillness that is unshakeable but nevertheless, it is a vibrant Self-knowing, soundless roar. This silent roar is louder and more comprehensive than anything heard with the physical ears. I know it to be the seed potential and entirety of everything already expressed. It is unmistakably subtle and absolutely normal. I experience this unified awareness as an all-encompassing but quiet addition to daily activity. All the wonderful benefits of integrated, awake understanding, luminous bliss and continuous universal connectedness, all together create the experience of unified Self-awareness.
For many years I have been regularly sharing, my experiences with friends. My experiences and descriptions have tended to be of an abstract expanded nature that might lead one to think that I am an impractical sort of fellow. But what could be more practical than a personal awareness that delivers a great deal of permanent satisfaction and has established, beyond doubt the intimate relationship and oneness between inner experience and physical activity. Writing about and delving into the subtleties of experience with others has spontaneously developed my ability to quietly recognize even the simplest, subtle experience for what It truly is.
Even though my experience of unified consciousness is clearly dominant—in that, it is also constant—it does not in any way diminish regular activity. In fact, the experience is like having wiped a dirty mirror and suddenly seeing the fuller value, the vibrancy, and brightness of our own reflection. When I am looking at or hearing anything the experience is not outside or even inside but is simply and naturally known as a mode of my own consciousness. This is not easy to describe or to understand. Words always seem kind of small and abrupt when describing unbounded oneness and the ever-silent, vibrating flow of unified pure-knowledge.
My awareness has a Self- knowing and expressing shimmer that has bliss as its nature. This bliss is as continuous as Self-awareness and permeates all the knowledge and divine modes of expanded and expressed consciousness. I see a vast vivid sun of great splendor—a cosmic cauldron of eternal fire that roars throughout its paces as the body of the universe in a great unity with my physical body. My experience is blazing—thundering like great boulders rubbing together—with infinite levels of sound connecting throughout the light of celestial, universal and physical activity.
Now, God has suddenly shown up and is sort of superimposed as the luminous content all experience. I am dwelling at the feet of God. The universe is at the feet of Krishna. We are a wonderful, universal hue of totality. Casting my inner eye up, as it were, there is an almost blinding, infinite distance to His face. I am recognizably, somehow part and parcel of this creation which is floating like a cosmic bubble in an ocean of our—of everybody’s—infinite awareness. Beyond the Yugas, beyond creation, I am eternal. I am not coming and going. I am a personified totality who is the cause, substance and expression of it all. I would love to call my experience a “whole array of principles”, which certainly is true, but it is all just too personal, intimate and wonderful to be or to feel so abstract or theoretical. The nature of this experience is not out there somewhere, it resides solidly as my heart, mind and body, and is the very life and legacy of everyone.
Harri, Thanks for contributing to the “new normal.” Not everyone has your gifts, but just knowing how “small” we’ve been is motivation to pay attention and be attentive to what is so easily overlooked or drowned out by our daily busyness. Peace, Rudy
Hi Harri
It is really amazing to get to know about your experiences. I have a question. You have mentioned during conversations that you believe there are very defined stages of consciousness that we evolve through. Would you describe your experience of awareness and enlightenment as being what is referred to as Sahaja samadhi. Masters who have realized the state say that it is difficult to put it in words. I have read some others describe Sahaja samadhi as the state where the awareness of oneness has become permanent and remains so in the midst of everyday activity.
Thanks!
Sanjay
Hi Sanjay
I assume that most Masters are describing the first stage of awakening which they feel to be the stage that is easiest for seekers to understand and accept as an achievable goal, not necessarily their own full experience. I have written a second book where I go into a more detailed and systematic description of the stages that I have experienced than in my first book. It will be out soon. Every permanent opening of the heart and mind for me has been like a green light for more and more not less and less. Often it seems that the word Enlightenment is taught and thought of as the end to some process or path that can now stop. My experience is that these Self-realized states are the start of a fuller, richer adventure that we could ever imagine.
As for God or Goddess, the human heart somehow appears to be large eneogh to provide a earthly to heavenly home for the ultimate creators. I personally feel tangibly surrounded by the togetherness of a sublime God and exquisite Goddess. It is my personal experience that our consciousness as it expands begins to include absolutely everything. How could we possibly think that God would not eventually be known, seen and included in every way and experience since they are the source and goal of our very existence.