There was a time when the experience of Self-Awareness, while always present was not connected to any other aspect of my life. Then there was a time for some years when my entire consciousness had a very celestial quality and sight to it. It was still slightly separate from regular activity but so close and wonderful that I did not want it to ever end. Gradually over time a more dominantly knowledge-based, unified awareness that included all other layers of my experience abstractly move to the forefront. Each more self-validating state naturally without much fanfare moved permanently to the forefront without excluding anything from the so-called past. As if the self-awareness had been hiding for no apparent reason. All my shifts of consciousness were immediately known to be clearly expanded values of previous experience.
My most recent experience has shifted from a more abstract, many-layered yet unified experience to a far more physical value of exactly the same experience. Deep understanding, streaming bliss, the Devata heavens, material life near and distant are known and perceived to be spread throughout not only unbounded-awareness but each other and have become the very functioning constituents of my heart mind and body. This is not a new state but is the clear blending together of one wide-awake experience of knowledge, of flowing, celestial heavens, bliss and of luminous physical life.
Just when you think there was no further place to experience/grow – then you learn unbounded and infinite has new dimensions. Very nice Harri.
Hi Harri,
I recently discovered you, like most, on BATGAP, and really appreciated your refreshing position on existence, beyond and in contrast to the nihilistic-neo-advaita fashions of recent times (the “nobody here, nothing to do” crowd).
Forgive my ignorance, but do you experience realms of the ‘deceased’, besides celestial heavens, presuming there is such a distinct gradation?
Perhaps, even more so given your recent shift of a “far more physical value”, would it be more correct to understand such other realms and heavens as no less ‘physical’ and ‘out there somewhere’ than our physical life here, but as you say, blended together, arising in unbounded-awareness? Perhaps analogous to how myriad radio signals occupy the same space, but at distinct frequencies.
Yours,
Phil
It is a fun state of being. The trick is to integrate it into zip code reality.
Very beautiful self~expressions, dearest Harri! 💖😊🎶 Amazing that you can find words that articulate these more subtle states of being. Thank you for sharing your realizations openly. 💖🌹😊